Apologies for not being in touch. I become so depressed and angry about Brexit. So I try to divert myself, switch off and try and forget about it.

When I got home late yesterday afternoon I could not turn on either the TV or radio for fear there would be something on it. Difficult for me the radio lover. Then I decided that surely I could risk the Archers. So waiting until 7.02 in order to hopefully miss the news summary I turned on. Unfortunately I got the last sentence of the news. Then as the Archers ended I quickly turned off in case the Arts review programme touched on Europe. Then later I sat and watched the first of the 4 hours of the French thriller I have recorded. After a disturbed night I have got through the day with 2 short sleeps, a stock up at Sainsburys, unpacking etc, and one more hour of thriller. Tonight the third one.

I HAD to buy a paper because I need the weeks TV programmes and so did glance at all the headlines as I found the Guardian.

But I cant go through life entirely dodging reality and returning to 1066 and 1944. So I must find a way to work through my anger. I cant live like this, and the next few months and years will be inevitably full of events [or non-events] to which I will be tempted to react with ‘I told you so’, or ‘I cant believe it is even worse than I thought’.